Him

Him.

I like him, so what can I do? Its not my fault, no matter how hard I try I just cant seem to get him out of my mind. The worst part is that he doesn't even know I'm alive, I could probably count all of the times he has talked to me, but I wont, because its not like I care or anything.. 


There he stands right in front of me, pretending that he doesn't know that I'm around, like I'm just of piece of gum on the floor, ignored. " Guys are so stupid! " I think in my head, first they talk to you, and then when all of there friends are around its like your nothing, like you have vanished. Why is it that us girls know that guys are idiots but yet we still fall for them, hard. His eyes slightly looked up, he saw me staring. Quickly I turned away, pretending I couldn't care less. Our eyes met each other's and he smiled, i tried to smile too, I didn't want to show that it was actually killing me inside, after a quick smile I turned my head, I was sure one more second of looking at his beautiful eyes I would start crying. " Sometimes I want to know whats going through a boys mind when he is falling for someone." I whisper to myself.


I tried to signal my friend without getting in trouble with the teacher, but of coarse when you need to tell someone something the most, they never see you. I gave up and just sat there, I couldn't even think, so many things were going through my mind, but like always when I analyze things to much I usually end up getting frustrated and give up. I got fed up, I couldn't take it anymore, if he doesn't care about me then why should I ever care about him. I am over him, if he really feels something for me, then he will come out and say it, I'm done with the hints.


Even though my heart will still stop when he says something to me, or smiles at me, at least I know that I tried, and that maybe just maybe one day he will fall for me as hard as I fell for him.


-Anonymous