Dear Lily,
I know it's been some time since we last spoke, and I know I have left you not to forgive me ever again. I just wanted to say that I missed you, and that everything I did was for your own well being - Even though I made it seem that my life would be better off without you.
When I drove away that day, I looked back to the old big pink house and was certain that your life without me would be okay, August raised your mother, so she could raise you too. It was bizarre to me how such a blessing like you could have me as a father, I had to let you go Lily, or you would never have known what it would feel like to be special, and to be loved. Every night I looked at of your bedroom window, I was silent and still, and just before I was about to give up, those little bee's appeared, flying all around me- it was like a dream, they were strong, but soft and gentle, and I would cry, just knowing that everything you told me was true.
After a couple of months, I finally came to the aprehended why you did what you did, and that I was an awful person. I swear to you Lily that I have changed, I havent even seen a single grit since I saw you last. I knew that you were going to be all right, they lionized you, and that was something that I could never do for you. I was never really ready for a little girl like you, and after your mom died it made it that much harder. Every second of the day you grew more and more like her- her smile, her blue eyes, her pale white skin, and her beautiful smile - you had it all, and that scared me.
As you got older you would Interigate me about your mom, I lied to you for my own selfish needs, I wasn't trying to protect you - Like a father should- I was trying to protect myself, I couldn't handle the fact that she loved you more then she had ever once loved me. I was mad that she went back looking for you, and not for me - Thats why all my life I have always been mad at you- and for that I apoligize greatly.
The time has elapsed since I last saw you. As you know Lily I am an old man now, and I am not getting any younger, if there is even the slightest possibility that you will come and see me before I am dead and gone, please do. It'll break my heart if I never see you again.
Ps: My feeling have came back to me now, and I watch a sad movie every tuesday just to cry again.
Truly yours - T- Ray.
